Good day to all whom may be reading. I guess all people go through an identity crisis at some point, and often we end up changing ourselves and the things that define us. I have gone by so many names (Yung Hayden, Kidchild, KidChild Hayden, KC Hayden) and it is time to make the final name change. Allow me to reintroduce myself my name is... (in my best Jay-Z impression)!
I started rapping at the age of 6, and I would rap about things I wouldn't dare utter to my mother. Gangsta rap was the style at the time I most gravitated too. One of my favorite artists growing up was C Murda, and I knew almost every lyric to 50 Cent's Get Rich Or Die Tryin'. I started really getting into rapping around 13 when I met a friend named Feranzo. We formed a group called the Youngins and He asked me what my rap name was and I didn't have one. On the same day I wrote my first full song, I pondered it over and thus, Yung Hayden was born. Yung Hayden was the verbal personification of a nerd trying to be cool through hip hop.
Moving forward a few years, I became KidChild. In case anyone was wondering, the name kidchild is self defined for me. The difference between a kid and a child is that a kid is usually defined by age or a lack of understanding, while child is not. You can grow to be 80 years old, yet you will always be the child of something or someone. Combining the two names into one, I always explained to those whom were inquiring, that it meant that I would maintain my kid like innocence while growing up. A bit crazy? Yes I know.
I had a Myspace following around 14 to 16 years old, I was sometimes getting 300 plays a day and I even put a mixtape out! It was called the "The Best MC Under 21", which I definitely wasn't. If you are one of the hundred or so that actually have my very first mixtape I ever put out, you would hear some potential on it, but I wouldn't dare rap those lyrics or play those songs today. It was just BAD! I think I really hit my stride as a rapper when I turned 16.
Understand, when I was 16, I was on a mission to prove I could rap about some of the deepest things you ever heard. I used vocabulary words I don't use everyday. I rhymed words with a rage and fire in my eyes that was completely fabricated by a need to feel a belonging to a hip hop crowd that completely shut me out because I was a nerd on the inside. The funniest thing about it was that I seldom listened to hip hop music compared to other things I could be doing. I was heavy into sports and reading, and I hardly listened to music . Hell to this day, I drift in and out of catching up on the latest and greatest hip hop albums.
As I grew, I started to learn more and more about rapping, because I started to listen too more rap. In a way, my love for rapping almost formed completely by happenstance or an idea of it altogether. How does one make great rap music when he rarely even listens too it? If you don't listen to it, you can't critique it, you can't meditate to it. While my teenage years were filled with snap and trap music, I grew more and more fond of the lyricists. I was heavily into Kanye West, Lupe Fiasco, Royce Da 5'9, Jay-Z and the Cool Kids for their willingness to be themselves. They just happened to be different. I believe I really understood what a lyricist was when I first heard "Dumb It Down" by Lupe Fiasco.
In enters the name K.C Hayden, the man in transition. K.C, short for kidchild started around 2013. I became the manifestation of the suppressed nerd whom decided to come to the forefront and fiddle with mics. There isn't much story to add here regarding the name, because the name really didn't change. Does anyone actually call P.Diddy, just "Diddy?". Ehh..
But throughout the ages of 15 to 27 I changed and my name didn't. And during this entire time, I feel that it should change because I don't see the world the same way I saw as a teenager. Fundamentally, I am completely different and my music fundamentally different as well. Hearing the name KidChild, sounds like someone trying to hold on too their youth, but I am simply embracing that, I'm getting old ya'll. KidChild is youthful, innocent, playful and now I find myself being drawn to write about politics, social issues, injustices, philosophy and real life experience. Some would say that's the dark side, I'd say that's just reality. Musically, I've changed completely because my perspectives and views have changed completely.
With that, my name is simply Hayden Jamal. It won't change again.
This name isn't a fabrication, it is my real name. what could I possibly change it too now? My name has to reflect who I am today, and who I am today isn't defined by a name. It's defined by my life and the experiences that have come with it. No matter what theory I may come up with, or what philosophy I may believe today to vehemently disagree with in 10 years, my name Hayden Jamal won't change, because that is what my mother named me. Plus, I think it's kinda catchy. I am a grown man now, and the name has to reflect that. Simple.