Good day to all whom may be reading. I guess all people go through an identity crisis at some point, and often we end up changing ourselves and the things that define us. I have gone by so many names (Yung Hayden, Kidchild, KidChild Hayden, KC Hayden) and it is time to make the final name change. Allow me to reintroduce myself my name is... (in my best Jay-Z impression)!
I started rapping at the age of 6, and I would rap about things I wouldn't dare utter to my mother. Gangsta rap was the style at the time I most gravitated too. One of my favorite artists growing up was C Murda, and I knew almost every lyric to 50 Cent's Get Rich Or Die Tryin'. I started really getting into rapping around 13 when I met a friend named Feranzo. We formed a group called the Youngins and He asked me what my rap name was and I didn't have one. On the same day I wrote my first full song, I pondered it over and thus, Yung Hayden was born. Yung Hayden was the verbal personification of a nerd trying to be cool through hip hop.
Moving forward a few years, I became KidChild. In case anyone was wondering, the name kidchild is self defined for me. The difference between a kid and a child is that a kid is usually defined by age or a lack of understanding, while child is not. You can grow to be 80 years old, yet you will always be the child of something or someone. Combining the two names into one, I always explained to those whom were inquiring, that it meant that I would maintain my kid like innocence while growing up. A bit crazy? Yes I know.
I had a Myspace following around 14 to 16 years old, I was sometimes getting 300 plays a day and I even put a mixtape out! It was called the "The Best MC Under 21", which I definitely wasn't. If you are one of the hundred or so that actually have my very first mixtape I ever put out, you would hear some potential on it, but I wouldn't dare rap those lyrics or play those songs today. It was just BAD! I think I really hit my stride as a rapper when I turned 16.
Understand, when I was 16, I was on a mission to prove I could rap about some of the deepest things you ever heard. I used vocabulary words I don't use everyday. I rhymed words with a rage and fire in my eyes that was completely fabricated by a need to feel a belonging to a hip hop crowd that completely shut me out because I was a nerd on the inside. The funniest thing about it was that I seldom listened to hip hop music compared to other things I could be doing. I was heavy into sports and reading, and I hardly listened to music . Hell to this day, I drift in and out of catching up on the latest and greatest hip hop albums.
As I grew, I started to learn more and more about rapping, because I started to listen too more rap. In a way, my love for rapping almost formed completely by happenstance or an idea of it altogether. How does one make great rap music when he rarely even listens too it? If you don't listen to it, you can't critique it, you can't meditate to it. While my teenage years were filled with snap and trap music, I grew more and more fond of the lyricists. I was heavily into Kanye West, Lupe Fiasco, Royce Da 5'9, Jay-Z and the Cool Kids for their willingness to be themselves. They just happened to be different. I believe I really understood what a lyricist was when I first heard "Dumb It Down" by Lupe Fiasco.
In enters the name K.C Hayden, the man in transition. K.C, short for kidchild started around 2013. I became the manifestation of the suppressed nerd whom decided to come to the forefront and fiddle with mics. There isn't much story to add here regarding the name, because the name really didn't change. Does anyone actually call P.Diddy, just "Diddy?". Ehh..
But throughout the ages of 15 to 27 I changed and my name didn't. And during this entire time, I feel that it should change because I don't see the world the same way I saw as a teenager. Fundamentally, I am completely different and my music fundamentally different as well. Hearing the name KidChild, sounds like someone trying to hold on too their youth, but I am simply embracing that, I'm getting old ya'll. KidChild is youthful, innocent, playful and now I find myself being drawn to write about politics, social issues, injustices, philosophy and real life experience. Some would say that's the dark side, I'd say that's just reality. Musically, I've changed completely because my perspectives and views have changed completely.
With that, my name is simply Hayden Jamal. It won't change again.
This name isn't a fabrication, it is my real name. what could I possibly change it too now? My name has to reflect who I am today, and who I am today isn't defined by a name. It's defined by my life and the experiences that have come with it. No matter what theory I may come up with, or what philosophy I may believe today to vehemently disagree with in 10 years, my name Hayden Jamal won't change, because that is what my mother named me. Plus, I think it's kinda catchy. I am a grown man now, and the name has to reflect that. Simple.
To Whom It May Concern
If you have followed me at any time during my tenure as an independent artist, you might have stumbled upon a certain producer whom has created video blogs on Youtube about me. I'm almost certain that nothing may materialize from this fiasco or "beef", but in case slander upon my name manifests I wanted to clear the air on my end. I have never committed malpractice towards any producer or music act. I also have never aired out any business practices, policy or dirty laundry of any person or business that I had problems with without speaking to them first. I wish this producer all the luck and success in the world of music and I'm certain he isn't a bad person; but every deragatory statement he has made about me is 100% false. This producer also has never reached out to me to address me in any shape or form. With that being said, If anyone has a problem working with me in the future because of the things said in these videos, please contact me at email@example.com so that I may give you the rundown.
With that out of the way
If you have been following me, you will likely have seen the words Motif Legend pop up. I've been asked, what exactly is Motif Legend? Some surmise that it is a record label, a catch phrase or a video channel on youtube in which I give information to independent hip hop artists and musicians in general. Motif Legend is a movement and a brand that seeks to cultivate a lifestyle of unity and awareness among rappers and independent artists. Motif Legend is not necessarily a record label as of now, but all are welcome to join the movement. We will have hats and shirts for sale soon. As of June 3rd, 2017, I am 1/3rd owner of Poetic Souls Entertainment and am signed to the label as the main artist. As with all things, my status could change in the future.
With that out of the way
I've been on a hiatus and some may wonder why. My living situation has had me compromised from being able to record and pursue music the way I have been wanting too since September of 2016. Peace Be Upon You, Innermission, Rollin in the Midwest, 6 PM in New York, It Is What It Is Cypher were all recorded sometime around April of 2016. I invested into a home studio, but I didn't really understand what I was getting myself into. I paid plenty of money, only to get quality that I wasn't 100% satisfied with.
The good thing is that the time allowed me to self evaluate my music, so that I could come back stronger. I plan to release at least 3 songs a month from this point forward. I've been asked when I would drop a mixtape and my answer has consistently been, when people demand it, I will make it, but until then, I'll do what I've been doing. If there are at least 100 hardcore fans I know will listen to it, you will have a mixtape. I put a lot into my lyrics, and I refuse to have a mixtape on datpiff.com with two or three listens, when i've likely spent weeks sometimes writing one song.
Thank you so much for reading! Until next time.
Oh Andreas. I met you over the internet I believe via Twitter. I remember how friendly yet professional that you were. I came across some of your videos and thought that we could do business much in the future. When shooting Peace Be Upon You, you kept on raving about how talented I was, yet I saw someone equally if not more talented whom was filming me. There aren't many people that come along that I've met whom were like you. You edited the video and I was stunned, you made me look cooler than I ever was. I officially became an artist, a rapper, my dream, even if no one was watching, I realized it become a reality. The feeling that I had that day will never go away. I only wish that I kept in contact with you more after the video was shot. I guess your constant banter about Donald Trump winning the presidency and you loving it turned me off if you will. As a black man, there are certain things that make me uncomfortable, but I surely regret that I didn't take the time to get to know you more. I could have sent a Facebook message to you, I could have texted you, and the last interaction I have from you is the last few seconds of the music video that we both created from our own sporadic creativity in the middle of a sunny day. Jumping fences and avoiding security officers, taping in the midst of little five points looking crazy; rapping in the middle of nowhere. Crazy that I had to find out from one of your clients that you were dead. I sent you a Facebook message, hoping it wasn't true; for the first time, sending the frowny emoji actually meant something. If I ever get somewhere, I promise they will know your name. I'm sorry for rambling, it's just hard you know? How could I feel so much sorrow for someone I barely knew. I figure I'd write to you again, maybe once a year huh, hopefully you will be reading somewhere better than where I am. I find out that you were caught in the crossfire of some bad rappers, I hope it isn't true; it would only reinforce the sometimes horrific stereotype that we as rappers face. It's so fitting, all of this rambling that I'm doing, so I'll end on this note......
and If you ever thought? the world was so dark, asking for the lord, to purify my heart, and if you ever thought, I don't know, just thinking out loud.... Peace Be Upon You. R.I.P Andreas Roffler.